Lord give me strength on this one! Notice I used the word less instead of no resentment. This is going to take baby steps and it's not easy when he comes and goes. The kids take it just as hard as I do and then I'm stuck dealing with their frustrations on top of my own and everything just goes into a downward spiral. I'm determined to be more appreciative rather than frustrated. I am thankful that he has such a good job, especially in such uncertain times. I've had numerous friends lose jobs over the past 3 years and I've witnessed first hand how difficult it is to keep your faith during those tough and trying times. Andy's job allows me to be able to stay home with the kids and live a very comfortable lifestyle for which I'm totally grateful.
This is going to be a journey for me this year. Pray for us if you're the praying type. I know I can do this, one day at a time and I realize that some days or weeks are going to be more difficult than others to survive. I keep thinking that if my attitude changes, maybe it won't seem so overwhelming at times.
Here's to a new attitude in 2011!
2 comments:
I am sorry your husband has to be away so much Steph. I have SO been there and was totally miserable and resentful as well. You always seem so positive and embark on great adventures. I admire you and your strength.
Steph,
You are not the only one dealing with this negative emotion. Dwight works many evenings, so I try to focus on the fact that he DOES come home every night. I often feel like a single mother... I will pray for you as I work on this area as well. God is our source of strength and change! Courage to you.
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